There is a link here. This link explain what DBT is and it is very well written. I feel that it is important to share with everyone. Have a good reading!
I am sharing my hapiness with you today. I am accepted and confirmed on the DBT program starting in the end of August and beginning of September. I am so happy. I was looking forward to it. I guess hard work paid off. I stayed strong as long as I could. I am proud of myself. I am also still enjoying my job. I am feeling so much better and I want to keep it like that.
Let’s talk about my day. I had an excellent day and there is why.
- I had a coffee and some fresh macaroons from the French bakery with my best friend.
- I finally got set up to quit smoking cigarette by using a vapor with my favorite flavor. Pina colada!
- I am going to be entering in the pre-training for the DBT intensive therapy in June. The therapy will start in fall.
- I worked on my resume this afternoon with my counselor at the MFRC and I want to work on a farm this summer. Berries and vegetables picking is what I am looking for. I already set up a list with few farms that I will drop my resume at. Wish me luck!
- I am at home with my family.
I can finally enjoy some happiness in my living room tonight.
There I am, alive. I am on recovery mentally and physically from another suicide attempt that happened on Easter Monday.
I was feeling so down and low and I had so much difficulties dealing with my mental health that I wanted to leave my life again. The only exit that I found was to die. I am struggling too much and it’s now harder and harder to handle. A little negative things, a tiny argue and I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am still afraid of my demons and my darkness. I hope one day I will be able to fight them. I guess I will make it happens when I get in the DBT program.
They keep sending me home. Most of my stressors are at home. No wonder why I wanted to quit my life if I stay home. I can’t concentrate on myself if it is too busy around me. Specially if I am mentally down. I talked with my man and I am spending couple days in in the city until I get to see my psychiatrist on friday. I hope she can help me figure out something that I can hang on to until I start the DBT.
For now I am relaxing and taking care of myself. Yesterday I went to the Hindu temple. I found hope and faith. I couldn’t believe it that I still want to live after all those struggles. I was able to let go some of my negative energy through the music. The power of that amazing energy found my soul and helped me believe that I just have to work a bit harder and I can make it happens.
I want a new life. I want to build a new life in positivity and be happy.
Next step is to go to the temple every Sunday if I don’t have any family engagements. I will do anything to help myself. At this point I found that the temple helped me to find my soul again. Yes I have a soul and I want to surround it with positive energy as much as I can.
Today is a good day for me. I dropped my youngest child at the daycare and went to the gym, I also visit a friend and I am going to see my social worker. I will be back home this afternoon with my youngest child.
Last weekend I found motivation and I did some cleaning in the house. I felt good after all. I also felt amazing after the gym this am. I am happy and I am ready to have a good week. I didn’t scratch or cut during the weekend. I am proud of that. I am smiling again. I don’t want to think about how long I will stay like that. One day at a time, I will enjoy every little moment. Leaving in the present this is what I have to do now until I join the therapy (DBT).